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大扫除，

整理了一些衣服

丢弃了一些衣服

等待    添置新的衣服

大扫除

整理了一些回忆

丢弃了，一些回忆

期待   创造新的回忆

要丢弃回忆，其实还真不容易，

有些新物， 我绞尽脑汁仍然记不起是谁送的，

有些旧物， 我百般想忘却都忘不掉

要丢，谈何容易，但终于也鼓起了勇气

望着以前大家细心地在情人节，生日，圣诞所做的精美礼品

看着现在大家忙碌地购买越来越昂贵， 却好像没什么纪念性的礼物

就在搬进这间房子的第10年

Sometimes， somethings are over, its funny how ppl still dwell on it.  u have no need to defend yourself since there’s no need to. when there’s no expectations, there’s no fault.

happiness is simple, just focus on it. focus on the happiness and dont get distracted.

for small things are the ones that make me happiest.

~~~~~~~~~

this sem is alr busy, no time for my drama and lots of work!

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feeling so familiar.

不要追求外貌，只怕虚有其表

i like it. i quite like it.

on the other hand, i wan to work n earn lots of money and go shopping!!! lets hope i get the other translation part time job! then i will have 2 translation jobs.

enjoying my last semester. i will miss it.

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do not go for looks, they may deceive.

do not go for wealth, even that fades away.

go for someone who can make you smile,

for a smile can make a dark day seem bright

不要追求财富，只怕随时幻灭

追寻让你微笑的人

一个微笑足以让

灰暗的生活变得多姿多彩

你是否有过，想起一个人就整个心温暖起来？

im glad im an arts student

after writing down some stuff n reading some books, i automatically feel better!

n i look forward to my last semester immersing in chinese.

觉得好熟悉

好踏实

好有安全感

这个人，

不和我很亲

却让我微笑

让我心安

谢谢你出现

健康是最大的财富

gone were the hopeful new year resolutions, the start to year 2010 proved to be a difficult one.

mummy had painful n swollen legs for days, so on 31st dec morning, i accompanied mummy to see the chinese physician, thinking it was some muscle pull. however, the chinese sinseh asked if mummy had seen the western doctor n said that such random swelling could be due to other illness, such as diabetes. mummy had diabetes for 3 yrs alr, so i was worried after hearing this. i then went with her to see the GP at 3pm. the GP recommended us to go to tan tock seng A&E  “immediately”.  his exact words were: ” this is not just swollen legs, u have high blood pressure, serious anaemia, diabetes, and i suspect kidney problems”. we were scared stiff n hurried to tan tock seng A&E.

over there, mummy was put in a bed right after the first diagnosis, which included ECG, blood sugar level n blood pressure level.  gor gor had went out with his frens for lunch, and i was alr late to meet my council girls for sakura international buffet.  i waited while she went thru a series of tests n for the doctor to pass his final diagnosis.  i decided to forgo countdown with the girls.

thankfully, gor gor rushed down to TTSH after his buffet lunch, which ended at 6plus. we were told to admit mummy into hospital as the doctor would take some time to come plus nth is confirmed yet. by 10pm, i was shagged, hungry n cold. i couldnt handle stress yet i was closest to mummy, i could feel her anxiety, her loneliness n everything. but gor gor being there sure helped. at least he was rational n i could talk non-stop to him, which was real comforting. we went home for countdown, n i called mummy over the phone, she was still not assigned to a ward. it was a long long day.

the next morning, on 1st jan, mummy called me at 9am and told me that she had been admitted into the ward n that the visiting hours was from 12-2pm. the doctor had told mummy that there was alot of water in her blood, n her blood pressure n blood sugar level was really high. she was given this intravenous injection which helped her get rid of the water in her blood. once again, the feelings of anxiety reached my throat n i feel as if im no longer up for any other thing except to take care of mummy. so i cancelled on my uni frens’ christmas gathering set on sunday. i packed some necessities for her: toothbrush, toothpaste, towel, then papa, gor gor and i went over to TTSH.  later, mummy told us  the doctor said that protein had leaked from the kidneys to her legs, causing the swelling. it sounded serious, but gor gor n papa still looked calm. i wonder whether it was cos i studied bio before which made me more worried. we din want anything like kidney damage.

since we were going back to visit her at 5pm again, gor gor n i shopped ard novena square n i got some new clothes. thank god for retail therapy. i was really stressed n feel all cooped up, hence i asked if applie n xyan they all are still meeting for ktv. well the ktv that night really helped. although i was like 1 n a half hrs late, but the company was fun n it was only $10 ($10 family ktv). we had chinatown’s famous frog leg porridge. at the end of it, i was feeling better.

on 2nd jan,  we visited mummy at 5pm instead of going for both visiting periods. i was so stressed that i had diarrhoea, gor gor went out and papa went for his half day work. at 5pm, we went to see mummy. apparently she was due for some scanning n couldnt eat until the doc sees the generated report for scanning. mummy described the scanning area to be near the liver n kidney. she said the doc told her that her swelling is suspected to be either due to the heart (which was unlikely), the liver or the kidney.that time we still din noe how long her hosp stay would be, n she was suffering in the ward due to noisy neighbours. poor mummy

on 3rd jan, mummy called me and said the doc had said that the test results were ok, n that she just needed to be on medication for the loss of protein from kidney. i felt really relieved as she was due to be discharged on that day. gor gor was free n went with me to hosp to fetch mummy. halfway, Dr Loh called me n told me a series of instructions to be noted while taking care of mummy at home.that includes things like 1L of fluid a day, regular medicine n mealtimes, appts to polyclinics n TTSH etc. mummy’s kidneys was porous n could leak protein thus we have to take extra care to eat medicine for her kdneys so that the condition does not get worse. i got stressed again, as it sounded like the normal routine of life wasnt going to be back.

on our way there, TTSH called us again, n told gor gor that there wasnt enough potassium in mum’s body, so she couldnt be discharged that day. of cos, mummy was really disappointed as she’s very scared being in hospital. she had a new drip- potassium- which was painful. i went home n checked on what potassium in the body was needed for.

on 4th jan monday, mummy was finally confirmed to be due to discharged from hospital. only i was free to fetch mummy cos it was gor gor’s first day of work at singtel. i collected all the documents n medicines. then i went home with mummy n took care of her, n taught her wad medicine to eat at what time. mummy looked older by 5years old since she had went to the hosp. thank god for 海派甜心, my only source of entertainment now.

today is tues, but the past week had been a nightmare for mummy n me. while gor gor n papa seemed optimistic abt it all, i am extremely stressed n i didnt dare to let anyone noe, esp not mummy. i had to take note of her medicine time, her meals, the amt of water she takes. sometimes i din even feel like talking to anybody, its sapping the usual energy n liveliness from me.  i went online to check what she was diagnosed with n took note of all the things. maybe it served me right to check it n get nervous, but i just wanted to be better informed. haish. its a real trial for me, it’s time for me to grow up n take responsibility for my parents. it’s time for me to stop all those stayovers n late night outings n to take care of my mum. it’s time i deal with stress, time management n housework (yes i dont really cook everyday but i shld try to now).

when all the stress pulls at me, each day passes s-l-o-w-l-y n i feel so stifled.  i feel like going out n forgeting abt it all. but if i do that, who’s going to be with mummy, n assuring her that its all ok? jiayou to myself then, i shld learn to cope with it. it might be a long term thing.

你是海派我甜心

好喜欢杨丞琳和小猪！！

hard work do pay off. i did the best in yr 4 than i ever did in my whole nus life!

so, it wasnt a mistake to do honours after all. yay. ))

offff we went to genting! (prelude to our hongkong grad trip next yr wahaha)  we took a night time bus and i was all sleepy! the 2 girls with perfect eyesight had no problems cos they din have glasses but i was wearing specs alr= extremely small eyes

we on the light on top of our seat to give lighting for the photo. heh.

we reached at ard 4am but we couldnt check into hotel yet! cos our room was due to check in only at 12noon. so we got to starbucks. yumms*

taken outside the casino, look we r as TALL as the christmas tree. i suck with beanie.

after breakfast we went to arcade to kill time. we had lots of time to kill before check-in. we played basketball n this really fun mario car race, it was so cute! we had alot of fun at this machine: throwing balls at the screen. oh that was the only machine where applie n i earned our tickets. haha.we got 4 really nice notebooks from that while pearl n tristan won a cute softtoy which looked like a pink cow.

lovely tiaras. mine was mickey mouse shaped.

finally stepped into a real casino first time of my life. not without being checked for my age, as usual -.-”  applie n i shared pooled our chips. i saw the “banluck” (21points) which ppl gambling din even get to touch the cards.

we played “casino win” where the players pit their cards agst the banker to see whose value is larger. applie n i won abit there cos the banker was really “suay” n kept losing! but we were super noobs in the casino n made some mistakes, thankfully nth that offended ppl haha. n we get excited simply when the banker reveal our cards as picture cards, when the banker himself got an Ace and thus won nonetheless.  finally, the banker was changed n we lost, so we headed to roulette wheel.

being players who love no-brainers, we totally suck at this game n lost everything cos apparently u shld be analysing wad came up previously. anyway pearl won (cant say how many times in case ppl rob her haha). i wished i could take the photos of the times when we were in the casino, but we couldnt. so here’s the BASKIN ROBBINS that pearl pearl treated us after winning!! thankks!!!!!! we had a fruity flavoured one and a choc one. love it!

we had nice supper on day1 night: roti prata which cost 8RM. we thought it was expensive but its really nice!!!!! or maybe cos we were REALLY hungry by then. hahah *yumms* i just realised we din take photo of all the nice food. *sobs*

random facts of hotel room night 1

1) applie keep saying she feels very very cold when i was feeling warm. we din even on any aircon/ fan/ window.

2) applie’s bimbotic moment…… she said the hotel’s hairdryer wasnt working.

us: “did u plug into the main switch?”

applie: “yes”

us: “did u on the switch on the hairdryer?”

applie: “yes”

us: “u din on the main switch!!!!”

3) we did lots drawing for christmas

DAY 2- THEME PARK DAY

buffet breakfast at hotel. we had a spread!

i knew it was going to be a great day cos we saw my eye candy at breakfast buffet in the morning. i had the eye candy when we were checking in day 1 and applie approved of him. but how likely was it to meet someone out of 5000 rooms of guests without even knowing who is he?? hahaha!

as we can see from the first photo at theme park, our zi pai skills were totally cui-ed on theme park day. tristan rightly named it.. was it “cut-off-some-parts” day? we had lots of fun taking zoomed-to-the-max photos. hahahah.

everytime applie zi-pai, there was a monster of sorts behind………

we were supposed to look scared but…….i think it was more like excited- scared-yawns-stoned.

zooming without knowing….

knowing that its zoomed….

and thinking its zoomed in when its not! hahaha!

finally a nice photo of the 3 of us!

i love this photo! we conquered spaceshot twice!!! and corkscrew which i was damn scared of. my fav ride’s spaceshot although its effing scary!

we also did go-kart twice.

we had kenny rogers for dinner, it was cheap n good! that was the choc muffin.

day 3 was basically shopping, n we din go to the ghost house once again. i console myself that its prob not fun.

PS i love the air in genting, it was pimple-free, albeit some dry lips n sorethroat.